January 2012
10 posts
dear god.
dear god.
you and i havent spoken in a while but i just wanted to say thank you today for the good honest people in my life, for the people who i havent seen so much but have been super supportive of me and for all the good things that have happened. im stll a little sad but things are getting better. thank you :]
Ugh. Everytime i think ive come to terms with shit.
oh god. i fail so hard.
sometimes i feel like i’m not good enough.
2012.
There are things i wanna do this year.
1. Get closer to God… I fail this year. I read the bible and pray and talk to Him every so often but i admit i know little about Christianity and the meanings behind passages i read. Ever since my stroke i feel a connection to Him but no reasons why except i felt His presence in my greatest time of need. God… You work in mysterious ways.. Help me get...
October 2011
8 posts
day 02. gym
today i went to nysc at rego park to supplement my physical therapy. found that i could use most of the equipment. i was only there for about an hour or so but felt like i had a good workout. used leg press did leg curls hip abductor n adductor biked used steps and some arm machines that idk the names of but worked on biceps and triceps. used the mirrors and watched myself walk.
i love the...
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day 01. left hand.
appreciate that i am able to type this with both hands with less difficulty than a month ago and im less frustrated with myself today.
i realized today thatt i dont need anyone to be happy for my small accomplishments.
March 2011
4 posts
not gonna lie. im hurting. my heart hurts. my body hurts. everything just fuckin hurts.
sometimes i really wish i just didn’t give a fuck about anyone or anything.
sometimes i wish i didn’t think so much; i wish i wasn’t so disposable.
i wish i didn’t feel like i was 2 fuckin inches tall.
im just gonna cry under my blanket.
February 2011
17 posts
days like this. i just loveee my grandma and grandpa. they are so cute. omgahhh.
<3.
things you say don’t mean anything.
i LOVE my bffl
bffL: your prince charming is out there,
bffL: just don't waste your time with frogs
bffL: kekeke
bffL: frogs that will never become your prince!
bffL: just step on them.
maybe if i cry, i’ll feel better.
if i dont have expectations, i won’t get hurt.
expectations deleted.
January 2011
9 posts
last night Happy was sleeping next to my feet, and this morning when i woke up he was snuggled with me underneath the blankets under my arms, snoring away. i love my dog <3 what a fluff~!
when you’re hurting. and. you’re not quite sure what to do about it.
will always say what i want to say.
if you can’t deal with it GTFO.
oh yea.
don’t ignore me when i’m talking to you.
rude.
in the morning when i wake up usually the first thing i see is my puppy. I say Hey Cutie! And I give him a big hug. Then we go on a long walk.
sometimes i want that too.
(y’know, minus the leash and stuff…but all the love)
what a good life you have, Happy.
new years resolutions...
are excuses to make broken promises to yourself.
but srsly.
let’s go to the gym 5 days a week.
mmkay.
thanks.
December 2010
21 posts
red panda.
Me: Mom, this red panda is really cute.
Mom: Oh...What is?
Me: Red Pandaaa...This red panda.
Mom: Oh...we can't raise red pandas in our house.
Me: ...wtf.